Retreat – Reflect – Relationships..
This past week I went away for a couple of days on my staff retreat.
The theme was ‘Breathe’ , and it was a time to take a step back and reflect
over the past year, rest physically, and re-connect relationally. There were 90
of us there. I work at a large church and it seems as though we have a large staff,
but when you figure out the ratio of church members to staff members it really isn’t that big.
Thats me in the center front row rockin the sunglasses..
Would you expect any less?
This is such an amazing group of people and I feel so blessed to work with them!
While we were there, in the midst of the crazy board games, the life threatening
game of spoons, eating, volleyball, and yes – dancing along with Michael Jackson on the PS3,
we were able to catch our breath and think about the coming year.
We were encouraged to spend some time in John chapter 15, where it talks about
Jesus being the vine, and us remaining rooted in Him. We also talked about how relationship
with God and with others is what Jesus gave as the most important commandments.
I began to look at my life and how I use my time and energy, and if I
reflect those things Jesus tells us should be first priority.
I am afraid I haven’t been doing a very good job with that lately.
As I looked over the different things I am doing, this blog came to mind..
I love blogging. I enjoy it immensely.
But it becomes a problem when I put it in front of other things, like relationships.
I have developed a habit of switching my mind from work to blog as soon as
I get home in the evening. Even if I am not actually writing a post, I am usually planning
one, taking pictures, doing crafts - recipes – home improvement projects.
I want to stress that there is nothing inherently wrong with any of those things.
The problem lies with me.
I will skip activities with people in order to work on my blog.
I won’t plan things for the weekend so I have time to work on projects for a blog post.
I had my granddaughter over to spend the night this past week.
It has been a year since she has done that. We used to do it every other month.
I feel tears in my eyes even writing those words…
I am not saying it is the blogs fault – it is me. I have a hard time doing things in moderation.
And because I can’t seem to do things halfway,
I am afraid just cutting back on posts may not work for me.
So.. I am going to stop blogging for now.
I believe God is telling me to be intentionally, fully engaged with the people around me.
And because I have a full time job, my extra time is limited.
This blog is, in some ways, a very selfish thing I do for me..
I have been thinking about this for a week, and I have shed many tears over it..
I believe it is the right thing to do – but that doesn’t make it the easy thing to do..
This blog is my creation – my baby. And I have put alot of work and effort into
getting it to the point of making money and developing a following.
And I really do feel a connection to all of
you that read it. That has been the very best part of it for me.
I am going to keep the blog up and running, but do not plan on posting for awhile.
It may be that I am able to put things on here occasionally,
I just don’t know yet. I plan to keep my Facebook, Instagram, and Pinterest accounts going.
I think I can put pictures and status up without taking too many hours out of my week
I want to thank all of you that have been such faithful readers -
you have been so uplifting, fun, and encouraging to me!
It means the world to me that you have stuck by me and put up
with my strange ways of looking at life..
I have felt as though you understand my quirkiness and like me in spite of it -
or at the very least you give me grace and put up with it
Thank you for sharing life with me..